Monday, November 30, 2009;8:29 PM
TIFFANY: I MISS SIL! ;)
;7:59 PM
Shawty Get Loose
Yupyupyup.I just got home & Tiffany's back in Singapore!!
Phew...i missed her. one of my mad friends.
That one hell of a crazy girl called me and screamed just now. She's coming over after her hot hot bath. Oh ad her hair's super fucking nice. i can't really describe. just full of surprises,that girl.It's a great thing she's back. Saw my pale face and forced me to see a doc. Wtf,i got work,babe.
I'm reading a walk to remember by Nicholas Sparks,hoping it'll let me calm down with my life. I'm all confused,sad but also angry with myself for being such an ass.
I'm missing soccer,and those sports i used to play just to get distracted. I'm missing soccer kitty too. kk i'll shut up. I hate this.
I'm gonna go talk to Tiff now. She's gonna play our all time favourite A Thousand Miles on her keyboard.can't wait. Yeah. nighty.
Thr's a saying old
says that love is blind.
Still we're often told,
seek and you shall find
So i'm going to find that
someone i have in mind.
Looking everywhere,
haven't found you yet.
You're the big affair i cannot forget
Only one i ever think of with regret.
Yupyupyup.I just got home & Tiffany's back in Singapore!!
Phew...i missed her. one of my mad friends.
That one hell of a crazy girl called me and screamed just now. She's coming over after her hot hot bath. Oh ad her hair's super fucking nice. i can't really describe. just full of surprises,that girl.It's a great thing she's back. Saw my pale face and forced me to see a doc. Wtf,i got work,babe.
I'm reading a walk to remember by Nicholas Sparks,hoping it'll let me calm down with my life. I'm all confused,sad but also angry with myself for being such an ass.
I'm missing soccer,and those sports i used to play just to get distracted. I'm missing soccer kitty too. kk i'll shut up. I hate this.
I'm gonna go talk to Tiff now. She's gonna play our all time favourite A Thousand Miles on her keyboard.can't wait. Yeah. nighty.
Thr's a saying old
says that love is blind.
Still we're often told,
seek and you shall find
So i'm going to find that
someone i have in mind.
Looking everywhere,
haven't found you yet.
You're the big affair i cannot forget
Only one i ever think of with regret.
Saturday, November 28, 2009;1:43 PM
Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly
Call up your brothers and sisters and friends
We'll go back to the place where the night never ends
We'll remember the fires, the burning car tires
how in the hell did we get here?
So why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away
Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly
Call up your brothers and sisters and friends
We'll go back to the place where the night never ends
We'll remember the fires, the burning car tires
how in the hell did we get here?
So why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away
;1:38 PM
Just some random pics.
It's just strange how Scyn and I experience similar things at the same time. I feel so fucked up.
It's just strange how Scyn and I experience similar things at the same time. I feel so fucked up.Well,off to work now. Need a fag.
Saturday, November 21, 2009;1:03 PM
Don't turn away,dry your eyes,
dry your eyes.
Don't be afraid,but keep it all inside,
all inside.
When you fall apart,dry your eyes,
dry your eyes.
Life is always hard,
Please hold on,it's alright.
dry your eyes.
Don't be afraid,but keep it all inside,
all inside.
When you fall apart,dry your eyes,
dry your eyes.
Life is always hard,
Please hold on,it's alright.
;4:31 AM
I've never felt better than this,and hope it wouldn't be disappointing. If my words were to be taken for granted, i guess it's better to leave now than later. But i'm not makng a mistake. I'm sure.
I know. Scyn,i'm sorry i can't tell you or anyone how it feels like. How this whole thing feels like. I've been through so much,and we both know what or who is worth the effort.
Tonight,right now,i can't sleep. I think i know what this is all about. I mean,when something that occupies part of yourself suddenly vanish,you'd feel pain. In your gut,your mind, both physically and mentally. But what'll hurt most,especially,is your heart.If it doesn't heal and another pain comes by,you'd give up. on everything.
sigh. i dunno why i'm being such an emotional freak. I should be feeling on top of the world. hahaha :)
Your soft voice never silent,
it's forever in my ears.
Serenading every moment,
and calming all my fears.
With your hand in mine i'll learn,
That there will be no more tears.
Thursday, November 19, 2009;11:52 PM
I'm in Scyn's room and she's talking on the phone. -,-
I'm tired.
Anyway,i'm quite surprised i received that audio recording of you singing this song. Which is clearly my favourite song. I don't know why you did that,but,whether if it's for me or not, i really appreciate it. Thank you. So much. Be happy ey. :)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009;8:36 AM
We're a picture in my mind. If i wanna find you,i just close my eyes.
Yesterday was my happiest day ever. and if it could stay that way,i swear i would lose it.
Wonder why you said sorry,when that was exactly what i expected.
We had fun;Scyn,Fatheha and me. But hate that moment when i.....sigh. kk nobody should know. Lucky you were there to for me.And i think you saw my face light up after that. Hahaa.
Thanks sweet. talked on the phone and Scyn didn't mind the noise. haha. sorry babe. i won't talk in front you next time.Like someone said,it's private & confidential. lol. Cheers everyone:)
If i give you my heart
Would you just play the part?
or tell me it's the start
of something beautiful.
Call me irresponsible
Yesterday was my happiest day ever. and if it could stay that way,i swear i would lose it.
Wonder why you said sorry,when that was exactly what i expected.
We had fun;Scyn,Fatheha and me. But hate that moment when i.....sigh. kk nobody should know. Lucky you were there to for me.And i think you saw my face light up after that. Hahaa.
Thanks sweet. talked on the phone and Scyn didn't mind the noise. haha. sorry babe. i won't talk in front you next time.Like someone said,it's private & confidential. lol. Cheers everyone:)
If i give you my heart
Would you just play the part?
or tell me it's the start
of something beautiful.
Call me irresponsible
Saturday, November 14, 2009;12:25 PM
I read the mails you sent me. why now? and why must you send it as if it's the last time? You'll always be my good friend. And if this song is your new favourite song,i'll never change it.
If you've read what i replied,i hope you'll feel better. Stop feeling down.
If you've read what i replied,i hope you'll feel better. Stop feeling down.
Friday, November 13, 2009;8:11 PM
i'm starting to be glad things didn't work out,cus life Is getting much better. With someone around. I love today-simply cus i did what i wanted after a very long time. right,Tembam? ahas.
i'm so very happy after that,i went speechless. Scyn went:"Aiseh,Sil."
ended at 6. Tembam helped me pack before taking over. I'm tired. really. but i'll try to get something outta my brain. I ate Kampung Fried rice with Fanaa and Haleem during break. Power ah. Boleh giler.
Fatheha,stop your ciggs. haha,macam faham je. See you tmr :)
I hope you won't leave.
This time i'll take it slow.
As all our defences,
we take second chances.
thou it's not a fantasy i,
just want you to know.
there's so much i can say but words get in the way.
So,when we're not together,
i will remember you.
i'm so very happy after that,i went speechless. Scyn went:"Aiseh,Sil."
ended at 6. Tembam helped me pack before taking over. I'm tired. really. but i'll try to get something outta my brain. I ate Kampung Fried rice with Fanaa and Haleem during break. Power ah. Boleh giler.
Fatheha,stop your ciggs. haha,macam faham je. See you tmr :)
I hope you won't leave.
This time i'll take it slow.
As all our defences,
we take second chances.
thou it's not a fantasy i,
just want you to know.
there's so much i can say but words get in the way.
So,when we're not together,
i will remember you.
Saturday, November 7, 2009;11:17 AM
I'm still not home. i'm in Bedok,at a friend's place. yesterday after work,went to Bugis with Scyn,changed,came back to meet the night shift people,we sent Fatheha to take a cab,and then went to overnight at some place scary. i'm tired. haaa. working later. wonder what i should say to MISS Anne if she asks. hopefully Siti and Hilda's there.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009;8:08 PM
Kitty viewing,kitty viewing,kitty viewing. hmmm...
;7:45 PM
Listened to this and kept taking naps whole weekend. Now you say you're lonely,
you cried the whole night through.
Well,you could cry me a river.
i cried a river over you.
;7:32 PM
found Fatheha's facebook. haha.
So,i just got back. yeah. and work was damn fun i kept giving unexpected shocks to the supervisors. and also,Fatheha kept on pinching me-on my arm,on my shoulder,and even leaned on me as if she weighs a kg. haha but it was awesome. Farhana,and another Farhana are working night,so couldn't spend time with em. & yeah,Fatheha,i can be your supplier. you know what lah. I'm typing blindly cus i'm dead tired,but i'm tryin my best to write something tonight. Can't wait for tomorrow. OH AND SCYNTHIA's back at work!! yes ah. i missed her like crazy. yeah. we went home together. Fatheha.Scyn and me. but i took a different train lol. So,I guess that's it,i can't type no more. post again soon.
didn't they say we were the lucky ones,
i guess that we were once.
But luck will leave you cus
it is a faithless friend.
i'm not surprised,
not everything last.
i broken my heart so many times,
i stopped keeping track.
They say all's fair in love and war
But i don't need to fight it.
So,i just got back. yeah. and work was damn fun i kept giving unexpected shocks to the supervisors. and also,Fatheha kept on pinching me-on my arm,on my shoulder,and even leaned on me as if she weighs a kg. haha but it was awesome. Farhana,and another Farhana are working night,so couldn't spend time with em. & yeah,Fatheha,i can be your supplier. you know what lah. I'm typing blindly cus i'm dead tired,but i'm tryin my best to write something tonight. Can't wait for tomorrow. OH AND SCYNTHIA's back at work!! yes ah. i missed her like crazy. yeah. we went home together. Fatheha.Scyn and me. but i took a different train lol. So,I guess that's it,i can't type no more. post again soon.
didn't they say we were the lucky ones,
i guess that we were once.
But luck will leave you cus
it is a faithless friend.
i'm not surprised,
not everything last.
i broken my heart so many times,
i stopped keeping track.
They say all's fair in love and war
But i don't need to fight it.
