I knew that i was in the presence of greatness;

not merely the presence of a perfect human being,

but of what might also be described,

without too much recourse to fancy,

as a perfect work of art;for you are the masterpiece

which i have been looking all my life,

Okay this may seem funny,

How could I be so blind you didn’t ignore me.

You had mixed emotions I know the feeling.

I felt as if we drifted, but we came together.

You’re the only one I want ,I would die 1000 times for you.

I hated your decision, but I will always love you,

your heart, your mind, your body and soul.

I will always be your friend and maybe one day your lover.

This is real,and this is good

It warms the inside,just like it should

But most of all,most of all,

it's built to last.

Cus you are the sun in my universe

Considered the best when we've felt the worst,

but most of,most of all,it's built to last..

Gotta get over you,nothing for me to do..

But have one last cry..

I don't even know why i'm blogging right now when

all i've been doing the whole day was throwing tantrums,

being so moody and keeping things to myself.

Let's just get back to reality.

This morning it rained like crazy,so after months of not

using my umbrella and almost planning to dump it,i ended

up needing it.f*&k.

Bio was madness,it went like this:

Ms Ng:Scynthia!! bla bla bla bla!!

Scynthia:What lah cher??I got do what!! wlao eh you.

Ms Ng:I don't have it with me!

Scynthia:Cher!!You mad is it?!

Parthiban:Yalah Cher,what happened to you?Mad is it?

hahaa..

Sil:Eh! Ms Ng you possessed is it?

Nurul:hahahaha!

Scynthia:Aiyoh cher...hais..

Sil:hahah!

Well,that's a story alright.

hah. sigh..D&T was as normal as it always is.

And night,is killing me like it always does.

I hate night-time. I wish i don't have to go through this.

God,help me..

A grief is heavy and strong,but you know that grief will heal someday,

for there is nothing you can do about death;death happens to all of us eventually

and,while maybe we could live differently to postpone it,the simple fact is that

people come and go,and what matters is how much you loved them while they were

around.No regrets.

But I have never had to grief for a love lost in the arms of another,

I can only think that it hurts,hurts like hell,like a kick in the ass that stays

with you forever.For once it happens you can never change it,and it must

colour the entirety of the relationship,not just from the moment

of the betrayal forward,but all of it:calls it into question,makes you wonder

whether the early love and passion was even real.Now I'm living it.

Separuh hati denganmu

Kujalani cintaku

Berusaha tuk jadi kekasih

Aku menipu dirimu

Ku bilang cinta padamu

Tapi dariku itu yang terbaik

Kau bukan pilihan

Kerna ku tak sedikitpun hasratku padamu

Terpaksa aku mencintai dirimu

Hanya untuk status palsu

Setengah hati ku jalani cinta

Kerna ku tak suka denganmu

Ku berikan cintaku

Meski tak setulus hatiku

Ku harapkan engkau tak pernah tahu

Rasa cintaku padamu

Hanya di bibir saja

Tak sedikitpun hati bicara

Semoga selama ini

Kau tak tahu bahwa sesungguhnya

Aku tak mencinta..

I was absent from school today.Well,at least i didn't have to go to the stupid prize-giving.

But honestly,i almost changed my mind about not going.

Too bad,I was suddenly having diarrhea/stomache,so i went in and out of the

toilet several times this morning and i decided not to go to school.LOL.

I was still occupied though,with D&T and some 'business' with someone befor that:)

Heck anyways,i'm onna go to school as per normal starting tomorrow.

Plus!! i spent over $30 on a bouquet of roses:((( but nvm,it'was worth it. right baby?

I miss cousin Diyanah-and the rest of course:))

shit i hope she doesn't see this.(she'll kill me!)

ANYWAYYY,I passed NAPFA!

2.4 timing/placing: 13++ minutes/8th

Shuttle Run:10.9 seconds

Sit-ups:43

Inclined Pull-Up:20(hengg ah!)

SBJ:1.85

Which gives me:GOLD;)

Love,

It's been a month now.I'm loving every day with you,

I think I don't deserve you. You're a great person,a great friend

and a perfect lover.I didn't expect to get to be with you this way.

I remember how we both were feeling that day.

We didn't know what to say to each other,so we just kept quiet.

Lol,what a moment.Well,as for today,thank you so much for everything.

It was just wonderful.I hope my surprise for you

would be enough to show you that i really do

appreciate you.I guess you already know about me and

my feelings (or should i say my past?)after you read

my messages and i was shocked to get that kind of reaction from you.

I realise now that I mean so much to you.But please don't sad about it okay?

Thanks for understanding me.

You're such a sweetheart.Like some people might say,you will complete

my rainbow someday.I hope that happens.Just be patient okay?

I hope to feel the same about you.See you soon.

P.S. i love you